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..burpp. Im full. yeay! and I couldn't sleep. GREAT. have to wake up early tomorrow since it has been 2 days I came late to work. good girl. I am. hee. :9 fuhh. seems like everything goes well. by the way, I got the house already. I got the job. I mean, the place for my 6months internship. will officially start on this coming May. I have found the new tenant for my 'little-hidden-lonely-box'. hope she likes it. I already packed up half of my stuff. books, notes, files, degree's stuff, CD's, DVD's, my memorable and valuable things, a box of BAGS, and BOXES of SHOES! they are a lot!! seriously. I just love shoes and bags. owh, they ain't handbags nor high heels. just colourful unique sling bags and of course, snickers. its much comfy I think. the only thing that I haven't crack out yet, is my wardrobe. and definitely, they are MANY sweaters inside. and baju kurung which hardly get the chance to be worn up. ngee. I think, I need more than a week to settle down. I might not really need those t shirts as much as I need them during my college life. gosh, I hate what I just said. or wrote. heh. no more student life. no more having fun without limits. no more hanging out till late at night. no more wasting time like there will be no tomorrow. and that's means, NO LIFE. is working life supposed to be that way? yes? no? I dont know. have to figure it out by myself after October. a long journey to go. Im not ready. so NOT. I went to the firm several times, and still I dont have the idea what is my life is up to. spending the whole life in this field? owh, shit. why must I keep thinking about this over and over again. yeah, its just that I have the kind of feeling, like strange feeling, perhaps? or maybe I just get too nervous. and, YES. it might be all about the workloads and responsibilities that I have to bear. nothing is easy in this world. AND nothing is impossible. both statements are true. but, which path will lead me to the right way, anyway? heh! I feel a bit relieved after meeting my lecturer today. I have told her every single thing from A to Z like she is my mother. I did the same thing to my mom. but, she could never understand it way better than a lecturer or mentor does. sorry mak. ;) I really hope this is the best for me since these are the best decisions I could ever decide by my self. pheww. I have made up my mind. I will just go with it. work for it. keep doing it. and the first step ever, is never think too much and NEVER HATE THE JOB. will do, and we'll see..